I keep reminding myself.. "I'm Noorjahan.. I'm 17.. I'm from Tunisia, and I have no stepdad..." The week passes by.. exams.. school.. Fallen.. it's a dull routine. My mom hasn't recovered yet. She never smiles. She spends most of her in the cemetery. We're fighting a lot. She's losing herself. I feel like she's lost faith in everything. What to do? she's not listening anymore. I'm fine. But, i'm dying. I choose to wear black. Not because my stepdad died, or anything. but because black is my favorite color.
Friday comes. I finally have it in my hands. Samsung Galaxy is in my hands. I start discovering it. I don't feel like doing anything by staying on this phone. it's so nice. I download all the apps i know. Whatsapp, Twitter. and during the evening, majd asks me to download more apps: Walkie Talkie, Viber, and some other apps. I love this new phone. simply do. I feel bad for my best friend for not having it though.
The next day, I go out with Jawaher. finally going out and having fun..
I meet her up by The Jarra. We go and have some pizza first as we bboth didn't have a yummy lunch. After that, we get some frozen yogurt, and head to some famous café in my region called "Twins."
another week passes by..and another friday comes. FRIDAY! it's the day i've been looking for! the day i'm going to the circus with slim on! I meet him at the bus station. he has 3 flowers in his hand (orange, white and red) he gives me the flowers as we shake our hands.
The circus is nice. I fall in love with one of the entertainer. he looks amazing, and cool. he's good at everything. i try to talk to him at the end. his accent is good. although he speaks with some german words at the beginning. as slim and i walk home, i feel like i've left a piece of me at the circus. with him. when i first saw him, my heart started beating. i knew this guy was really something. i knew he could take me away. when i saw him, i felt alive. is it love at the first sight?
On sunday, today, i have some stuff going on. the most important thing is: going out with yasmine. we have a nice chat, nice food, and nice long hugs. it's good to be in her embrace after these two harsh weeks. it's good feeling her love. but, when she tells me she's in love with the guy from the circus that i love i admire her more.
here are some more pics from my week :)