It's 5 a.m. I'm still awake. I'm still watching Hunter X Hunter. It makes me feel better. Better because maybe it's the only thing comforting. because all those i'm talking to don't seem to do it. because they keep reminding me of what happened Friday 28th. i don't wanna think about it anymore. my head starts to ache. so, i decide to take off my glasses for some time.
I wake up with the sub shining in my eyes. it's 1 p.m. I check my phone, it's still set on youtube. i hurry up to close the window. it was already burning my eye, and hurting me. after that, i make myself a sandwich, and keep watching my manga.
i love Gon, and Killua's friendship. they don't care about the backgrounds, or hwo they look, or anything.. they're friends because.. they feel good around each other, because it's fun for them to be together. i want to have this kind of friendship. friendship that in it people don't care about how you look, what your background is, if you're rich or poor, gay or not, black or white..that kind of friendship.
i spend my whole sunday in bed. in darkness. i can't get out. i can't even turn on the lights. i can't do anything. even by staying on my phone, or my PC, i'm in pain. and it's not just simple pain. but, it's killing me. i come up with a solution to cover my eye. and i do. i cover it. what is killing me now is that i have to go with it in this situation to school. i wonder what's going to happen.